Ordinary Girl .

im so damn sad today ):
hais , kept thinking of Juainizal .
why am i in this situation ?!
i feel so lost without him !
i really need him , i thought that we could be FOREVER !
but , no . im so wrong !
i feel that someone is missing .
& that's nizal & my father .
hais ): where's my father ?!
oh no , i really miss everyone !!
now , im listening to 'that should be me'
that song is dedicated to nizal ..
how i wish i could give him this song .
now , he have someone else ):
someone better than me , maybe ?
FUCK !
i hate this feeling ..
many of my love ones are no longer with me anymore ..
hais , i want to be someone else .
who is always happy ..
it's so complicated , haishhhhhhhh !
from just now , i kept on crying&crying .
only 2 knows how sad am i .
& that's Allah & twin .
)':
feel like crying again but i know tomorrow my eyes will be swollen ):
i wish to end this feeling .
but , i know it wont !
im so sorry for this emotional post .
but , for today .. it will be very emotional .
other days , it wont . i guess ?
HAISSSSSHHHH !